SCHOOL REOPENS

Argh!
Tmr is the 1st day of T3! I still have 3PTs, Hw and... I just don't really want to go back to sch. Not that I don't like the ppl there or anything. Just that when there is really a lot of stress and I don't know how to deal with it, I get really frustrated and angry. I'm really afraid that when I am angry, I'll hurt ppl around me or do things that I shouldn't be doing. I'm always aware when I am angry and I always pray that no one comes to talk to me so at least I wont vent my frustrations onto them. I always control my emotions but I know I still can't do it well. It's really tiring when you have so much work and have to face difficulties everyday.
I know that there are a lot of things I cant really do about but I know what I sould at least try to do.
I can't be sure whether I can be awake and not dream during class or be nice to everyone.
But I'll try my best to at least control more of my emotions when I am angry or simply pissed... just try to forgive and forget since everyone have mistakes....
Aiya... I dont know why am I like this ... sometimes I can be so forgiving that I am shicked but sometimes i can be so selfish that I cant stand myself...
People say if you are born with AB blood, then you have split personalities so 2 AB blood ppl can play mahjong and if you are born saggitaurus, you also have split personalities... So the problem is... I am born with AB blood + Saggitaurus... does that mean I play mahjong by myself???
Actually, If I come to think abt it now, its true that I always change what I think ... kinda like split personalities...
Scary...
Haha...
Kinda late now but I drank white coffee today so Im not sleepy...
white coffe!!!!
Taste wonderful!!!!! Yayy!

Bye ... see you tmr....( as in the blog)
:)
Love,
Awesome Yifan