SCHOOL REOPENS

Argh!
Tmr is the 1st day of T3! I still have 3PTs, Hw and... I just don't really want to go back to sch. Not that I don't like the ppl there or anything. Just that when there is really a lot of stress and I don't know how to deal with it, I get really frustrated and angry. I'm really afraid that when I am angry, I'll hurt ppl around me or do things that I shouldn't be doing. I'm always aware when I am angry and I always pray that no one comes to talk to me so at least I wont vent my frustrations onto them. I always control my emotions but I know I still can't do it well. It's really tiring when you have so much work and have to face difficulties everyday.
I know that there are a lot of things I cant really do about but I know what I sould at least try to do.
I can't be sure whether I can be awake and not dream during class or be nice to everyone.
But I'll try my best to at least control more of my emotions when I am angry or simply pissed... just try to forgive and forget since everyone have mistakes....
Aiya... I dont know why am I like this ... sometimes I can be so forgiving that I am shicked but sometimes i can be so selfish that I cant stand myself...
People say if you are born with AB blood, then you have split personalities so 2 AB blood ppl can play mahjong and if you are born saggitaurus, you also have split personalities... So the problem is... I am born with AB blood + Saggitaurus... does that mean I play mahjong by myself???
Actually, If I come to think abt it now, its true that I always change what I think ... kinda like split personalities...
Scary...
Haha...
Kinda late now but I drank white coffee today so Im not sleepy...
white coffe!!!!
Taste wonderful!!!!! Yayy!

Bye ... see you tmr....( as in the blog)
:)
Love,
Awesome Yifan

Yayy! backk from China

Fathers day

Its really fun cos mama and baba brought me to karaoke. So fun! But I noe why she cried. She miss her father too on this special day ... but I didn' noe how to console her or anything so the only thing I could do was to act like I didn't noe why she cried...

back in s'pore

Actually I didn't really wanted to come back cos I could sense the stress from there. Sch... Ballet... Tuitions...Camp... REALLY TIRED OF ALL THINGS HERE! but still...
Nvm... just try to make the best out of everything from now on! Yayy!

Love
The wonderful Yifan!